So lately talking about moving to the city with my friends has hit me pretty hard. Am I ready to move? Am I ready to fend for myself? Will I be able to fully support myself?

It’s time to grow up and I hate the thought of it. I’ve always said I wanted to leave my house but I know it’s not going to be an easy transition for me. Plus I just think of my mother over and over again. I think of how lonely my house will be for her and it makes me so emotional. I just keep thinking of this cold empty house and my mom being alone. I could never do that to her and I wonder how I am EVER going to leave.

I love my mom so much and I wonder if I’m completely ready to leave her behind. It’s too hard to think about.